No More Mumbo Jumbo

Ah it's good to be back! Where have I been you ask? Well I've been living life as it comes and loving every second of it. I feel happier now than I've been in a very long time. I'm going through the days as just me. Not the person I wish I was or the person I used to be but just me, Kora. Happiness has been coming a lot easier to me. Why? Cause I choose to be joyful and delight in the little things. God has worked wonders in me lately and I'm loving it. :)
Since I last typed..I have gone through a break up, started getting even closer to my friends, started on weight watchers (I've lost 8 pounds!), found a calling at my church, gotten to meet and know new people, being crafty, spent a lot more time at the local coffee shop (One of my very favorite places!), started putting more thoughts in outfits, and being more creative in general! When you don't worry about life or what's gonna happen next, you become much more free. I'm extremely light-hearted if you can't tell.
I've started carrying my camera in my purse with me at all times. I actually stopped in an alley downtown last week and started snapping pictures! Some stranger saw me squatted down taking pictures of some broken glass, then proceeded to snicker at me. Snicker all you want random person, I'm an artist at heart!

I've also been very much into making things. I made a necklace the other day and it is one of my current favorites. It has "wishes" or otherwise known as dandelion seeds, inside a glass bottle with a cork top. Don't worry, it's a small bottle and it even has a burlap bow on it. Absolutely adorable.

Recipes have been super big lately too. I spent part of one of my days tearing out a ton of recipes from some of my magazines. A folder with all of them in it is another of my always going projects. I can't wait to try some of them! Delicious food is one of my weaknesses. I'll have to take pictures when I cook some select ones and post them to the blog. That's another thing! Notice the new layout? The tabs at the top of the page? I'm trying to become a regular blog connoisseur. It's a work in progress but it's gonna get there eventually! My goal is to do the things I love and this is one of them. Along with so many other things that I can incorporate in! I'm very excited about it. So start watching out for more organized posts instead of all this mumbo jumbo.

Choose to be happy!
Kora

Questions?

     Have you ever had someone come up and ask you one of those mind blowing, life altering, confusing, take you off guard, but resonable questions? I have. I was presented with one of these questions this past week. I won't tell you what the question was, but what I will tell you is that it certainly got me thinking. I have felt like Winnie the Pooh. I need a thinking spot where I can say, "Think. Think. Think." and figure it out. It was something that I never really thought I would be asked but yet something I really need to think about. Are you annoyed yet with how many times I can say think? Life is full of surprises and I'm pretty sure I have several in store for the future. You all are curious now aren't you? Don't worry, I'll probably tell you when I find out.
     My life has been full of surprises. It's been more than a little crazy and hectic for over a year now. I feel sometimes that the changes were more bad than good. It really started when my Great Grandma Lofton passed away (as I've already told you). I still regret not going to see her in the hospital when they said she was doing much better and should have been able to go home soon. The day after the positive feedback, she passed away. It broke my heart that I didn't get to say goodbye. A few months later I lost someone I thought I could count on to be there for me and again, my heart was broken. The next several months were full of sadness and lack of meaning. I continued to ask myself, "Why?" Always the questions. All through the rest of the time, it was one thing after another. My car broke down time after time. More people came and went that I thought I could trust. I began to think that you can't trust too much or you eventually get broken. I lost my job and my hope that things would get better. Things seemed like they just couldn't go right. I knew it was satan at work but I tended to get upset with God. Again with the questioning, "Why? Why me?" Then I decided to give up. I'd had enough. I had gotten to the breaking point and gone past it. I stopped trying. And I soon found out, that's exactly what he wanted me to do. God wanted me to give it up to him, to stop trying to handle it on my own. I suddenly had that burden gone. I chose not to worry about it anymore. Before I knew it, things were falling into place. Things were getting better. I met more fantastic friends, went to an amazing bible study group, started my career, enjoyed time with my family more, and took pleasure in the simple things. Now I'm as happy as I could ever wish. Things may still go wrong every once in awhile but that's just life. A lady that I really admire from my church was talking to me a few weeks ago on a girl's day. We talked about some of the things I've mentioned and I said that I had felt like they were all bad. She looked at me and said, "Were they really? Just think, if you hadn't gone through those things, would you be where you are now? Knowing what you know or having met the people you have?" Her wisdom really struck me! The fact is that I wouldn't be the person I am now without all of that. I won't change how I am except to be more of the person I ought to be. I'm not going to worry because I have set my hopes on something higher. I'm not going to question God anymore. He obviously knows what he's doing. No more questions about it.