Writers Block.. But With Life. Life Block?

Do you ever just get lost in your own life? Not like the good kind of lost (like, "lost in icky sweet happiness over how unbelievably perfect my life is"). I'm talking about the not so great kind of lost where you don't know what next step you should take because the path has so many stupid pot holes of circumstances and crappy mud puddles of indecisiveness, EVERYWHERE. Yeah that kind. It was seriously just one thing after another over the past several weeks. I lost just about all sources of income. Not because I was fired, but because my jobs disappeared. My beloved Tea Room is closing permanently. It was going to close just for the summer so my boss could get her new home renovated and moved into. Unfortunately, fate did not allow for it to re-open. I have been helping here and there to get things ready for our final closing sale tomorrow. I'm dreading it really. It's already been hard enough watching people walk out the door with the beautiful treasures that made up the lovely place. I actually cried at the last sale we had.. over the floral sofa. I wanted to buy it so bad to put in my house someday. So many days that I sat on that thing and visited. The tea room was one of the most magical places on earth. When you walked in, it was like walking back in time. Elegant chairs and tables set with fine china. Low lighting from chandeliers, lamps, and candle centerpieces. Beautiful flower arrangements everywhere. The aroma of fragrant teas and delectable food floated through the air as classical music graced your ears. It was total bliss as soon as you walked in the door. I looked forward to going into work. It honestly didn't even really feel like work at all. It was the best possible job that I could have asked for. I formed an amazing relationship with my boss, Cynthia, Brian (the pastry chef, who is also her nephew) and several of our incredible customers. I laughed and joked with them constantly between carrying out plates and making aromatic hot teas. We always asked each other how our weekend had been or what was new in our lives. Cynthia and Brian became not just my coworkers and friends, but my family. It has been such a blessing working for her and I'm sad that it's come to a close at the Tea Room. I will be so fortunate to find another job that even comes close. I need to start looking for another job but it's hard to. I'm lacking the drive.. on a lot of things. I'm not quite sure which step to take next. There's so many areas in my life where I ask that question, "What should I do next?" I'm at that point with job options. With house options. With social options. I was with church options, till this past Wednesday. I love my church but I'm the only college student there. I found (I believe) a pretty cool church college group to kick it with on Wednesday nights. So that's resolved (Yay!) but I'm still waiting on an open door for the other things. I need prayer, and a lot of it. I know God will handle it, he always does. I always end up having what I need (even though a little extra cash would be nice. :P). I jump back and forth between feeling defeated and being super optimistic. Not sure if that's normal or not. But then again, I've never been the "normal" type. I probably should have titled this, "Saying Good Bye to the Tea Room" since I talked about that just about the entire time. Pray for me and my boss tomorrow as it's going to be a rough day. I might end up clinging on to some old lady's leg, crying hysterically, and blubbering, "Don't take that tea cup!" That's a scary thought.. Yeaaaah prayers would be awesome.

Oh my! Summer Update Time

Has it really been two months since I last posted? Time flies when you're having fun! I've had a lot of trips and activities going on for the past few months. I took a weekend trip to New Mexico to see one of my best friend's graduate. He invited me to come up and party with them so I jumped on the opportunity! I drove 9 hours just to get there. His family has been good friends with us since Ethan and I were in kindergarten. It really was a blessing to be able to go and spend time with all of them.

Ethan and I at his graduation.

A month later, I was on my way down to Dallas! My best friend Alyssa has an internship down there this summer. I went down to spend the weekend with her for her birthday! Couldn't have her spending it alone! We did so many things, it was crazy. Trying Moroccan food, exploring the downtown area, hitting up the farmer's market, going to the Art Museum, and riding an old school trolley, were only a few of the highlights. I really loved it! The amount of fun we had, is probably illegal. :)

On the trolley. Happy Birthday Alyssa!

Another one of my best friends had a baby shower in June for her little girl. I couldn't be more excited for my "niece" to make her debut! The grand party was hosted at a lovely little cottage on a lavender farm. The whole thing was so adorably perfect. I am so very happy for Reghan in the starting of their cute little family! Check out her baby bump updates over her blog, Reghanland. You'll love them.

Entrance to the Baby Shower!

I'll post a few more pictures and snippets from my summer so far. I've been so blessed to have so many amazing things going on this year. From concerts to spending a grand time with "my kiddos", it certainly hasn't been boring. 

 

I took my brothers and one of my kiddos to the zoo. I found a little friend while I was there.

Bowling with my MamMaw, cousins, and all three of my kiddos. It was so fun!
Also, my MamMaw and cousin Danielle are too cute!

Vampire Weekend concert that I went to with my friend Nick. It was such an unbelievably great concert! I love these guys.

Morning porch snuggles with my old kitty. He's too precious so I had to add this on. :) 

Well I think that just about does it for catching up, other than.. I've got a man! I'm dating a pretty swell guy who has been a great friend for quite awhile now. He's a gentleman and I'm sure I'll be bragging on him more in the future. ;) Hope I didn't bore you too much with this post and that everyone's summer has been blessed! Until next time.



Music Monday, My Girl by The Temptations

 

I'm going back to what should probably be the "original" old school today. I seriously love all these old groups and I happened to think of this song today so here it is! The Temptations are the bee's knees. 

Music Monday, The Walker by Fitz and The Tantrums

 

I told you that I love Fitz and The Tantrums.. So here they are again! I just love their music style so much. Enjoy this funkiness and the rest of your week!

Music Monday, Lean On Me by Bill Withers

 

I'm doing a flashback today! Enjoy!

Music Monday, Summer Vibe by Walk Off The Earth

 

I am obsessed with Walk Off The Earth. OBSESSED. They always get me with their tunes. It's not summer time yet but I wish the weather would get warmer. I want the spring sun and breezes!! I have a feeling this song will constantly be playing in my car when summer finally decides to roll around.

Have a great week!